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This Too Shall Pass
It is not only ended relationships or past years that we cannot get back. We cannot get today back either.
Thank you for reading. I am ending “blogging” in its current form. I have fulfilled the final goal on my Bucket List — a year ago in Cyprus, I felt a strong desire to leave some of my thoughts behind for my sons to find when they are older. Let them eagerly make all their own mistakes in their twenties, and perhaps in their thirties they will turn to the old man’s material. 😉
In my previous company, I delegated all the work a couple of years ago so I could focus on raising my sons. By now I can confirm that the grass is not greener next door; it is greener where we water it ourselves… A couple of years ago I thought a happy family was a lovely goal in itself. Now I would say it is an essential foundation for everything else good. I am starting a new company in 2021 (the next item on my Bucket List), but with a happy family behind me I feel much more supported.
“Dad, what are you happy about?” my son asked yesterday, hoping to hear something good. “Nothing in particular, I was just watching you” — the two brothers playing with a balloon. It is incredible how much a child can laugh at simple things (adults, take note). Yes, it was just one tiny moment in the middle of a perfectly ordinary, dim autumn day — but so charming, so beautiful. If that same frame passed before my eyes in the final moment of my life, I would be quite content.
People sometimes remember an ended relationship or something similar and think: it is over; I can never get it back. But dear friend — we can never get TODAY back either! My sons were not yet the way they are now a year ago. And a year from now, they will NO LONGER be this way. Everything changes in tiny increments. Nothing remains the same; everything “disappears”. Enjoy it while it is here.
My younger sons are 4 and 6 now — and soon they will already be 24 and 26. Far too soon. What would I then be willing to sacrifice to travel back in a time machine, just once, to a moment when they both still fit on my lap at the same time? I have that opportunity right now. Completely free.
Today — so ordinary and yet so extraordinary.